Sonamy: Part 1 - Chapter 14

       "STUPID ME!  STUPID! STUPID! STUPID!" Sonic shouted, as he began kicking a tree over and over again.  He was back in the same field as he was when he was confronted, only in a different spot.  This time, he was by the woods, a little bit further away from the actual field, but not much further.
       After running away from Cream, Tails and Knuckles, he managed to watch over the place from a distance, making sure they were well out of sight before returning.  When they were gone, he had jogged back to the field, knowing they weren't going to come back.  Lightening never strikes the same place twice, right?
       Having said things about Amy that he knew wasn't true, he had managed to outrun the pain he had felt upon saying them.  But, as always, every time he stopped running, the feelings always came back to him, and they were always amplified.
       What's the matter, hedgehog? his thoughts asked him, You'd think you'd be happy that you managed to express yourself this way.
       "Well, believe it or not, I actually feel much, much worse," responded Sonic, "I know what I said was a lie, so it hurts me even more knowing it!"
       And why do you suppose that is? he thought, You always say you don't love Amy, so you told them that you didn't!  You should feel happy, right?
       "Well, I don't!" Sonic snapped back, "It's not in my nature to hurt people like that, or to lie to them.  When I do, I feel really bad.  I know what I said hurt them, mostly Cream."
       No, hedgehog, his thoughts said, The one that got mostly hurt was Amy!  You know very darn well those things you said weren't true, and yet, you said them to save yourself from dealing with the truth!
       "What truth?" asked Sonic, "The fact that Amy deserves better than me?  The fact that I'm would make a lousy boyfriend, let alone a husband?  What I said wasn't a lie.  I don't give her a reason to love me.  She needs someone who can be there for her, to protect her, to love her."
       So, you're saying that you don't care about her?, he thought, Are you saying that your feelings aren't in any way connected with the reason why you always protect her?
       "It's not that I don't like her," he said, "It's that I can never be with her.  I admit that I like her, but as a friend, nothing more."
       You know, maybe this is why people believe you have a hard time 'expressing your feelings,' he thought, You're only lying to yourself when you say things like that.  Not only does it hurt Amy when you runaway, but it hurts you, knowing that you don't want to run away from her.  Sooner or later, you're going to have to make a choice: either tell the truth, and admit you love her, or keep on running away until it eats you up and destroys you.
       Sonic stood there, slightly dumbfounded.  He knew what he was thinking was right, but he also knew what he was saying was logical.  He was caught at a fork in the road, a road that splits in two different directions.  Both ways made sense, but he was bewildered, not sure if going down either path was going to help him or destroy him.  Both seemed to have a win-lose situation.
       "I want to help her," he said, after a long moment of silence, "I want her to know the truth, but I don't want her to be hurt from it.  If I tell her, then she'll only become more of a target than she already has become!  I can't live with her, knowing I'm putting her in that kind of danger."
       Be serious, hedgehog, his thoughts snapped at him, You're the fastest thing alive!  You've destroyed bigger threats than Eggman can count in his life time!  You've protect the world from danger when nobody else did!  I think you'll have the capabilities to protect her from anything that comes her way!
       "I may love her, but I will not risk her life like that," he said, "I mean, it's not fair, it's illogical, and it's wrong.  I protect people, not put them in the front lines of harm's way!  I will not or could not do such irrational acts of…"
       He was interrupted by the sound of a twig snapping behind him.  He turned around, towards the tree-infested forest, and began surveying the area.  He heard another snap.  His fists were at the ready for whatever, or whoever was there.
       All of a sudden, loud rustling sounds came from above him.  He looked up to see someone falling out of the tree, hitting multiple branches on his way down.  Luckily, all the branches had broken the fall, and the person fell on his chest.
       "Ouch!  Well, that could have worked out better," he said, as he stood to his feet and began brushing himself off.
       Sonic's eyes widened with horror.  His fists were still at the ready, but now, his adrenaline was thru the roof and his heart was racing.
       "TAILS!" he shouted, taking a few steps back, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?"
       Tails slowly turned to him, trying to force a sheepish grin, "Hey, Sonic…um…I was just…you know…just dropping in…you know…just to say…um…what's up?"
       "How long have you been up there?" asked Sonic, his fists still clenched and his heart still racing.
       "A while," answered Tails, "I was flying past, looking for you, but then I heard you talking, so I peeked in to hear what you were saying."
       Sonic's already horrified face and widened eyes seemed to worsen.  "What exactly did you hear me say?"
       Tails tried not to look in Sonic's eyes, which were filled with fear, worry, and anger, all mixed into one.  "Not much…um…just, you know…bits and pieces…here and there…you know?"
       "I'M NOT KIDDING AROUND, TAILS!" shouted Sonic, "WHAT DID YOU HEAR?"
       It was at that moment that Tails decided it was time to fess up and tell him the truth.
       "I heard you say the truth about Amy, Sonic," said Tails, keeping a level tone, "I heard you say multiple times that you love her, and that what you said before were lies."
       "Humph," said Sonic, as he turned his back towards him, "You didn't hear me say that.  You must have it mistaken for something else I said."
       "Sonic, please, I'm trying to help you," explained Tails, "You just have to trust me!"
       "I can do fine by myself, Tails," Sonic shot back in an angry fashion, "Thanks anyway.  I have to go, so I'll see you later."
       He didn't wait for Tails to say anything.  He just took off at the speed of sound, creating, yet, another sonic boom, as he sped past.
       Tails watched him go, with a slight smile on his face.
       "I guess Knuckles was right," he said aloud, "Sonic is hiding something, and I'm going to have to find out what it is."
       With that, he flew up into the sky, trying to locate Sonic again, and feeling relieved that he now knew the truth.