Sonamy: Part 1 - Chapter 9

       On the outskirts of Station Square, just between the suburbs and the actual city itself, was the most beautiful field anyone had ever seen.  The grass was green and crisp, the trees were healthy and in bloom, and flowers of many assortments ran for miles.  Everything here was so peaceful and so relaxing, not many people come, just because they don't want to ruin such a beautiful sight.

       Regardless of its marvel, Sonic wasn't really feeling up to running through the field and supersonic speed, as he liked to do from time to time.  In fact, he didn't even feel like sniffing the flowers or enjoying the clouds as the slowly moved overhead.  Unfortunately for him, there was something else on his mind at the moment, or rather, someone.

       He stood atop a hill, not a very high one, but one that had a great view of the whole city.  He stared, blankly, at the ground, lost in thought.  There was a sorrowful look in his eye, one that made him feel like he wanted to cry.

       "Amy," he whispered, as he closed his eyes and lowered his head in shame and guilt.  He talk about marrying Amy had reminded him of a feeling he had for her, a feeling he tried so desperately to hide from everyone, including himself.

       "Oh, Amy," he said again, "Why can't I tell you how I really feel about you?  Why can't I just tell you the truth?"

       Sadly, Sonic knew the exact reason why he couldn't tell her.  He knew what would come if he even considered telling her.  He always tried to avoid times like these, these thoughts he had, by running away, or pretending they didn't exist.  However, when the time came where he stopped running and when he's reminded of Amy, the feelings always came back.

       He sat down underneath the shade of a huge oak tree, and looked blankly to the sky.  He watched the clouds roll by, and the sun begin to hide behind them, like they were trying to play a game of peek-a-boo.  As he watched the sun begin to reappear, the rays hitting him with their warmth, he let out a deep sigh.

       "Why must I only pretend like I'm shy, or that I can't express myself to you?" he asked aloud.  "Why must I pretend like I don't care about you?  Why must I torture myself so much?"

       Then, he reached behind his back and pulled out a tiny photograph that he had there; one that no one even knew about.  It was a picture of Amy, smiling her pretty smile, in her red dress and her red and white boots.  Sonic had taken it from one of Amy's scrapbooks one day, when he was "forced" to visit her.  She didn't notice the picture was gone, and no one else knew he had taken it.  As he looked at her cheerful face, he let out a deep sigh of defeat and put the picture away.

       "Who am I kidding?" he asked, "I know exactly why I must hide my feelings for her.  I do it to protect her, to keep her away from danger."

       He stood to his feet and leaned against the tree, "If my enemies knew that I loved her, they would use her, in order to get to me.  They'd stop at nothing to see me fall, die trying."

       Sonic closed his eyes softly and said, "If anything were to happen to her because of me, I'd never be able to forgive myself.  I can't risk her life like that."

       Sonic knelt down and began to well up tears.  He really did love her.  He really did consider asking her hand in marriage, when the time was right.  But, he knew the danger them being together would bring.  He couldn't risk it, he couldn't risk her life.

       Out of nowhere, another realization began to sink in.  He began to remember what everyone around him kept saying.  He began to hear what many people keep saying to him, or behind his back.

       "If I stay away from her, and keep avoiding her like I do," Sonic said, "Then she gets hurt from my neglect.  That's the downside to keeping this a secret."

       It was at that moment that he felt like his heart and his brain were playing a twisted game of tug-of-war inside of him.  On the one hand, he didn't want to risk putting her life in danger by telling her he loved her.  On the other, he realized that he was only hurting her already by avoiding her and pretending she doesn't exist.  He didn't know what to do; he didn't know where to turn.

       It was then that a simple fact came to mind.  Something he knew was true, even though he really didn't want to believe it.  He closed his eyes and said aloud, "As long as there's evil in the world…we can never be together.  There are more risks in loving her than there are in not loving her.  What choice do I have?"  His heart had lost.

       He stood to his feet and smiled a phony smile, "Why am I even worrying about this, anyway?" he asked aloud, "I have better things to do on my time than think about this."

        Keep telling yourself that, hedgehog, he thought, causing the phony smile to vanish in seconds, You're only fooling yourself, and hurting the one you love.

       "She doesn't love me," he said out loud, "I don't give her reason to love me.  All I ever do is run away from her.  What kind of person does that?  Why would she love someone who treats her like she's nothing?"

       Then why are you doing it? , his thoughts asked.  

       "I'm doing it to protect her," he said aloud, "I'm not doing it because I'm enjoying it."

       And why do you suppose that is?  Why do you think you're 'doing it to protect her,' and 'not enjoying it?' his thoughts screamed at him.

       Sonic hung his head in defeat and whispered, "Because I care."

       The words no sooner left his mouth that he felt his ear twitch, an involuntary reaction when he knew someone was coming.  Immediately, he turned around and went on the defensive, balling his hands up into fists.  His tension cooled down, when he caught sight of Tails and Knuckles approaching him, side by side.  Immediately, he tried to fake a smile and crossed his arms at them.

       Not the best timing in the world, he thought, as he rested his shoulders and exhaled, But it'll definitely get my mind off all of this!

       "Hey guys, long time, no see!" he said, offering a polite, but weary smile.

       "Hey, Sonic, what's up?" asked Tails, as he waved at him.

       Knuckles decided to cut the small talk and cut to the chase.  "Sonic, we need to talk to you about something rather important," he said, crossing his arms.

       "If it has to do with Eggman," said Sonic, with a look of determination, "Then I'm all ears.  What have you guys got for me?"

       Tails scratched the back of his head in worry, "Actually, Sonic, it really has nothing to do with Eggman.  It has to do with…well…you."

       As if on cue, Cream walked out from behind the two of them.  The three of them watched, as the look on Sonic's face went from determined to horrified and worried.

       "Oh no," he said, as he took a few steps, "No, no, no, no, no…"

       "Hi, Mr. Sonic," said Cream, as she offered a small, weak smile.

       Well, this is just great! Sonic thought, It was bad enough she pushed this on me yesterday, but, now, she got Tails and Knuckles involved in this!